Change

Have you ever had that moment when you crave absolute change?

Almost like a reptile shedding; leaving everything behind and moving forward without a second thought. These past few years have been tough and as a result I've been left feeling stuck. I'm not the same person I was two years ago, yet I'm living in the same city with the same job going to the same places.

I know I should be grateful for the roof over my head and the food in my stomach, but there is a nomadic part of me that craves simplifying and leaving. How does one do it? How does a person shed the old layers?

Purpose

pur·pose

ˈpərpəs/

noun

1.

the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.

I'm struggling to find mine. From the outside it seems like some people are born knowing what theirs is or have a life event occur that gives them a purpose. I've seen people with a passion so great that it drives everything they do, a chess match with all of the potential moves mapped. Is it weird to to not feel that passionately about something?

I would be lying if I didn't admit that it creates a sense of envy. An envy to face each day knowing why and how this maps to your purpose, to know without a doubt what it is you are meant to do.  I envy people with that purpose.  There is a difference between a plan and passion. I'm from a time where everyone asked what is your five year plan. This mentality seems to have gotten people in trouble. College, marriage, kids - a plan; however, it had no purpose and certainly no passion.

Meanwhile, the CPA is trying to provide for the plan while hiding a passion for animal rescue and is constantly reminded that animal rescue doesn't provide a stable income. 

Is there a kickstart for passion? Is there a divination for purpose?